People

     For once this post isn't about our children. It's about other people's children and their parents. Sometimes you have no idea of what people have to struggle with on a daily basis, what it takes for them just to get out of bed every day and face their challenges. It can be substance abuse, depression, other mental or chronic illness, learning differences, relationship heartache, body pain, you name it----- folks are dealing with it. And you have no idea at all and they are doing it alone.
     A man I know is facing huge health issues and still he goes to work everyday just happy to have work to go to and to be alive. Many of his old friends didn't make it. His wife and child also have challenges of their own. This family makes me realize how blessed we are, how fortunate. When this man smiles at me and thanks me for our prayers, my hope is renewed. We are all in this together.
     So be glad. Maybe this describes your life but maybe it doesn't. Smile. Buy someone a coffee. Take a minute to talk. Ask a person "How's it going?". Maybe they will tell you the truth and maybe they won't but at the very least they will know you care. And that is what it is all about, isn't it?

Yellow

     My husband and I have been blessed with two beautiful daughters, both as lovely on the inside as they are on the outside. The inner being matters much more to us obviously and we have not been disappointed. They are kind, generous, helpful, considerate and caring, even towards each other! They are not like this every minute of every day of course but everyone is grumpy once in a while, aren't they?
     I believe that children are not a blank slate when they are born; they have a default setting if you like and ours just happen to be set at "nice". We know how fortunate we are in this regard; juvenile detention is full of kids not quite as positively aligned. Of course desperation, wrong time, wrong place and bad choices can send great people on a crooked path. That could still happen to our girls but today, here and now I know that they are good girls: caring citizens with what we consider to be decent values.
     Our eldest has been sleep deprived, hooked up to machines and spending 24 hours a day with me, her dotty old mother, for 5 days. Still she is a ray of sunshine, a warm and pleasant being even in trying circumstances. Her golden yellow light shines for all to see and we are warmed by her peaceful presence. This afternoon I want to whisper in her ear, "Sleep my darling, sleep, for tomorrow is another day and we have much to do."

                                                        Photo: Jamie Smith Studio

Hospital

     Our daughter and I are spending five days in the Neurosciences ward at BCCH. It is a busy place with full parking lots, crowded elevators and bustling families going here and there. The EEG video monitoring that our daughter has to undergo is in the hope that we might find out why she is having so many seizures. Her antiepileptic medication is reduced in order to prompt seizure activity. The location of the seizures' origin will also be very useful information.
     It is a surreal experience to more or less drop out of your everyday life and step into a hospital room where your child is consigned to a bed for five days. It is also bizarre to want your child to have seizures but that's what I am doing: praying for a seizure or three. So strange! That everyone here is kind and helpful could go without saying but I will say it--- everyone is incredible. And if ever you are feeling sorry for yourself, come grab a coffee and look around. You will know immediately how lucky you are, how blessed you are to have such small worries. Hundreds of children here are dealing with life and death issues every minute of every day. All I have to do is watch one child have a least one seizure. No worries.

Why

 

 

     Whenever our daughter hears stories of young people abusing drugs or alcohol, she has a hard time wondering why they would do such a thing. Our daughter would give anything to trade places with an NT (neuro-typical) girl. She recently came to realize that she often feels envious of her little sister for being "normal" as well as smart, thin and beautiful. That any typical kid would take chances with their life, health and safety just to drink or drug themselves into oblivion is beyond our daughter's understanding. Why?
     Of course everyone's life is relative. Neuro-typical kids have problems too. The only thing is they don't have the massive, life-altering reality of a neurological disorder which shapes every aspect of their being from motor and spatial issues to social difficulties, not to mention seizures which can and do occur at any time. And I bet they have a friend or two to share time with. Perhaps a day in someone else's shoes would halt their self-destructive tendencies....and maybe not. As our daughter would say, "That's sad."

Village

     Whoever said that it takes a village to raise a child was not wrong. In the life of a chronically ill and/or challenged child, it certainly does. One of the people who make a difference in our daughter's life is the kind lady that drives the "special-needs" bus. She is one of the people that makes our daughter's life easier by driving her door to door every single day of the school year. Our daughter has had a difficult year with more and more seizures, medication ups and downs, illness and mood difficulties but this nice person is a friendly constant in a world of change.
     Our daughter reports much about her day; it is an aspect of her learning disability that she debriefs with me every afternoon most of what she experiences. This is part of the reason that it is so important that I am here when she comes home from school every day. She needs to do this recount of the day's events and I welcome the opportunity to listen. Most days I hear something nice about this wonderful lady who drives our daughter's bus. We laughingly call it her yellow limousine because she is often the only student on it. There is not a day that goes by that we do not realize how fortunate our daughter is to chat, to laugh, to ride and to spend time with this lovely person. As our daughter would say " 'bye Robyn, love ya!"